Deactivated

OK, I’ve deactivated my Facebook as a first step in trying not to care as much about the election. I’ve never done that before, but apparently it can be reactivated easily. I was just seeing way too many upsetting posts, particularly from feminist groups documenting the horrors that women in the Trump Abortion Ban States are enduring.

Also, I’m done reading The Washington Post. My husband reads it daily, so we won’t cancel it, but honestly, fuck Jeff Bezos. I’m so tired of these asshole white male billionaires and their outsized influence. And while I’m at it, fuck Joe Rogan too. Did you know that little shit is only 5’7”? I am taller than Joe Rogan. And of course, it goes without saying…FUCK ELON MUSK.

Aaaah, now that that’s off my chest…

Back to my efforts to not care about anything other than my own inner circle.

I have some fun things to look forward to:

-Luncheon today: I’m attending a ladies lunch this afternoon. (Actually, I think there’ll be one man there, but he’s cool.) The guests are all church friends of mine so there is absolutely no chance that any of them are Trumpers.

-Babysitting next weekend: My husband and I are going to babysit our adorable, perfect infant granddaughter for a few hours next weekend! I cannot wait to see that little angel again. I can already tell that having grandchildren is going to the absolute best part of being 60+.

-Book group meeting next week: I get to see one of my favorite groups of women. I am so fortunate to have this small group of book-loving friends with whom I can be completely open and always feel supported. (We are reading Solito by Javier Zamora this month and I need to finish it this weekend.)

Also, I had a realization that if Trump wins the election, I’m probably going to seek out a paid position (perhaps a part-time one). I’m going to need something else to focus on, other than the news and volunteering for lost causes. And I think I can still make some decent money in my field, which would mean more resources for the people I love.

17 thoughts on “Deactivated

  1. I could actually feel how therapeutic your F bombs were. I’m glad you are not shy with them. You gotta let it out. I feel the same way. Glad you have a few get togethers together at enjoy and divert your attention away from the insanity.

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  2. F-Bombs and people willing to express their fears and anxieties and hopes and anger during this time, is so grounding. I’m thankful for it when it isn’t a diffuse cloud sort of despair.

    I’m really hoping against hope, and to do so I need to protect my peace more too, so just deleted my Twitter. I started to delete and old Twitter too, but then saw it ‘was not found’, so guess that one was done for me. I just can’t regulate my attention lately, anxiety ruling my fingers and waiting for every whiff of new “News”.

    It might be cathartic to delete the Facebook account I deactivated a long time ago and only sign in to when I’m looking for a photo, but it’s a lot of work to go through and make sure i have everything. I just don’t want to feed into these vicious cycles anymore. Every single SMS started out as something that could be beautiful and help us know one another better, but all of them are deeply polluted by now, and not by accident.

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    1. I think all of us like-minded people (especially women) have been through something like a 10-year collective trauma. Not to be too dramatic, but I still get a sick feeling thinking back to the day we found out that “grab ‘em by the pussy” won the presidency. Then COVID and overturning Roe…and now this neck & neck race.
      But I’m feeling positive today. She will win. She has to. Hold on to your Facebook. It might be fun to reactivate on Inauguration Day and celebrate.
      Twitter/X is truly a cesspool, owned by a would-be oligarch. Good to let that one go!
      Hang in there Stephanie!!!! We’re not going back ❤️

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      1. Times like this I really wish I had a community like your church community, if only to sit all in the same place with others and pray in whatever way seems natural!

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      2. I’m tempted to try our local UU again, as I do every five or so years. It changes leadership a lot. I’d have to change my work schedule to attend, but have one Sunday off coming up soon so maybe I’ll test it.

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      3. Yes, each UU church has a different vibe. Give it another shot! (It was the choir that really hooked me in. I’ve been singing with these same people for 20 years now.)

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